PT  - JOURNAL ARTICLE
AU  - Daaleman, Timothy P.
TI  - What is My Value as a Doctor?
AID  - 10.1370/afm.2592
DP  - 2020 Nov 01
TA  - The Annals of Family Medicine
PG  - 558--560
VI  - 18
IP  - 6
4099  - http://www.annfammed.org/content/18/6/558.short
4100  - http://www.annfammed.org/content/18/6/558.full
SO  - Ann Fam Med2020 Nov 01; 18
AB  - A weekly habit of viewing my performance data led me to question the value of my doctoring. I tried to answer this quandary in my head for months, but it was a patient encounter that revealed what I had been searching for. As a doctor I am bound to the care of another, especially when disease, disability, or injury create any space between a patient and their personhood. I stand in the breach.To offset my data habit, I have adopted a practice that reviews my patient care and interior movements at the end of the day. The daily exercise has uncovered a pattern in which my anger, despair, or isolation are invariably are tied to those times when I have failed to stand in the breach with a patient. More importantly, the practice illuminates my finest hours, when I have entered into that chasm with an unstated and binding promise to my patient that they will not be abandoned.